Wow. Life can be so twisted sometimes. Just when you think fate is going in the direction you wish, it changes course again, making you sit back and wonder what the hell you are doing!
In an odd twist of fate this month, I somehow ended up in ICU after having had a very serious seizure and almost losing my life. It was nothing I did to myself really, it was just one of those things that happens unexpectedly and although there were signs, they were not caught fast enough. Scary waking up in a hospital and being asked if you know where you are and then everyone telling you what happened, meanwhile you have absolutely no recollection of anything!!! It causes one to reassess their life and how they live it; makes changes for the better.
My change is to live life to it's fullest, even more than before. I have come to realize that really, it is up to me to make me happy. I cannot wait for someone to make me happy by loving me, I need to be happy with just loving myself and I do but I always felt like it was not enough. I now see the light. True love will find me and follow once I stop looking and just love me only.
So, on this Valentines Day, my 39th birthday; I love me. I am treating me to things, good coffee and a donut for breakfast, maybe get my nails done, buy myself something sweet and sexy to wear for myself and myself ONLY! Then spend the evening with my children and their friends and girl/boyfriends who are like my own children having dinner and really having some laughs. Then trying to rest up tomorrow so that I can get my butt back to work!!
To my friends, I so love you all so much! Each and everyone of you teach me so much everyday!!
